I feel like a bomb waiting to explode....not really, but I feel like things are going to happen all of a sudden and blow up in my face!
Aggghhh!!!! I just don't feel ready. I know that if this baby came tomorrow, I would be able to deal with it as we have everything we NEED, but I just feel like there is so much left to do. AND, not necessarily everything has to do with the baby, but I just know if I put it off, it won't get done.
I was stressing this morning and was up at 5 am thinking about all the things that need to be done in the next 6-7 weeks. I mean, my goodness, 6 or 7 weeks??? That's it??? It sound like a lot, but it really isn't especially with all the activities planned between now and Labor Day!!! It will fly by faster than I can keep up I'm sure!
So, after I checked the calendar to see when Hubby and I could plan a date night, I realized that he has something to do every single weekend - did NOT make me very happy. NOW, only one weekend is both nights, but most are all day events and that means getting up early Saturday mornings so no late Friday nights and sluggish Saturday night sometimes! The only weekend free at this point is my birthday weekend which just happens to be about 5 days before this baby is due!!! My luck, I'd plan something for us and we'd be enjoying our romantic dinner for 2 in the delivery room!
I had a mini-meltdown and festered over it a bit....prompting me to ask him to see if there was anything he could give up - which would be hard, as 4 of the 6 weekends are non-negotiable but I was fishing! I came up empty! BUT, he promised me that everything would get done....just to make my wish list and he would work on it!
Well, my number one was a date with him....a friend practically forced me to go out after I whined and she said she would keep LH Friday night!!! AWESOME!!!! Love friends like that! The ones that just KNOW you need a break!
So, now, we have a date night set and I'm working on my honey - do list!
I just let out a sigh of relief.....a small one! As, the plan sounds great and all, but until it's executed, I won't feel satisfied!!
I have confidence that it will all get done....I'm a fairly good delegator - just ask hubby...I'm always barking some sort of orders at him!!!