I am so sorry I have been MIA for wow, almost a month! I've actually started a few posts here and there and then they just ever got finished (can't imagine why not - haha)! For a realistic goal, I am going to try at least 3 posts a week...I can say this is most likely to occur due to the fact that I am at work 3 days a week!!! Yes, I'm back at work and it seems that this is where I get most of "my" stuff done. I actually get to eat lunch, not to mention, check and respond to emails, catch up on blogs, and most importantly, adult interaction.
I LOVE being with my babies, but I am not SAHM (stay at home mommy) material. Well, I could be if I could actually AFFORD to do what I wanted, whenever I wanted and NOT work. I need to work though. I really enjoy it too!
It hasn't been too bad coming back. The work part is great. I love the people I work with, so that part was easy. The hard part is learning how to juggle it all again. I am not back to "me" yet and that drives me crazier than anything else. I'm too type A to just "go with the flow"! I admit it and I don't care. I'll let my hubby be all "let's just play it by ear". But I also must admit that drives me bonkers too!
I'm now sleep deprived. I wasn't the first 8 weeks of M&M's life, but now I am. I was in heaven, living on love, blah blah blah and I was also waking up around 8 or 9 not 5:30! NOW is the hard part. Getting up at 5:30 to pump, shower, dress, feed her a bottle, change her, and cart her off to whoever is keeping her by 7 am and that still doesn't seem to be enough time. Usualy LH is up and ready to eat and get dressed by 6:30, so its just a juggling act.
I've actually forgotten I have 2 kids already. Really? I mean, I KNOW I have them, but when trying to schedule something or plan an outing for someone, I just blank out. For instance, I wanted to drop M&M (her new blog name fyi) off at the sitters AT 6:45 am on Monday so I could be at work by 7. Well, that's kind of hard to do when hubby doesn't even walk in the door until 6:45ish in the mornings!!! So, I had to readjust by 30 mins. Not a big deal, but I was ready to leave the house with her not thinking about LH still being there!
My friends tell me this part will get easier and I will return to myself eventually. I just wish it was sooner rather than later. And with the holidays approaching, it adds that much more stress in the mix!